I Realised Something Today

Most people are afraid of dying. You ask them what their one fear is out of anything, and it's the answer a lot of people give. I realised that I'm not really afraid of dying. What I am afraid of, is that I'll come back as someone else and not have the same views of things that I think are right in this lifetime. I'm fucking terrified of becoming someone in another life that I fight against in this one. Someone who is rude and who thinks that people shouldn't be able to think for themselves. Someone who hates people who aren't "the same as them" in belief or otherwise. Someone who has a closed mind and is too stubborn to open it.

I'm honestly terrified that, even though I won't remember being in this lifetime, when I come back as someone else, I'll be one of the worst people I can think of in this life. The fact that I have no control over who I come back as truly scares me to no end.